Posts by gordon d

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Why would this even cross my mind?!?!?!?!

by Juniper in

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well, after 10 years of being together, hubby has decided that he's found his 'soul mate' (the second time this year, neither of which was me) and is moving out.. i'm thirty years old and no kids, thanks to the fact that i spent 12 years in full time service telling everyone it's better to wait until the 'new system' for raising a family.

that's all beside the point - and perhaps better suited for my counselor.

:) anyway, the thought that keeps going through my mind is "this never would have happened if i didn't leave" and "how am i going to find someone to spend my life with at this age and who will understand me the way an ex-jw can"???

gordon d

Hi Sparky,

Im stepping outside and looking for the smoke signals...

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Why would this even cross my mind?!?!?!?!

by Juniper in

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friends

well, after 10 years of being together, hubby has decided that he's found his 'soul mate' (the second time this year, neither of which was me) and is moving out.. i'm thirty years old and no kids, thanks to the fact that i spent 12 years in full time service telling everyone it's better to wait until the 'new system' for raising a family.

that's all beside the point - and perhaps better suited for my counselor.

:) anyway, the thought that keeps going through my mind is "this never would have happened if i didn't leave" and "how am i going to find someone to spend my life with at this age and who will understand me the way an ex-jw can"???

gordon d

Hi Juniper,
Aren't you glad to be here instead of the KH.... People feel your pain, People do care, and people do want to help.

Now stand up and repeat after me:

First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
I spent oh so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
but I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and now you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

Love from us all!!!!!!
gordon

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Give yourself a JW nickname

by JH in

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at the meetings, i didn't make many comments so i'll call myself:.

brother mute.

give yourself a jw nickname.

gordon d

After you leave.. how 'bout "Brother-Where Art Thou"

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Posted Zero hours preaching- Fading faster

by OnTheWayOut in

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for the first time in my jw history, i turned in a slip with a big zero written in every column,.

turned it over and wrote "zero tracts" below that, i wrote "stumbled by the co".

( see http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/121888/1.ashx if you want to understand the co comment.).

gordon d

Hey OTWO,
As an elder, you're obviously in a unique position...
If it doesn't conflict with any moral reservations, how 'bout tape recording any possible meetings that you have. You may never even play them again but if you continue to grow in your "ex-dubness", you might be glad that you have them... who knows, it might even serve as a tool for helping someone else, down the road. Or defending yourself from a he said-he said incident (("she said" intentionally ommited)) If not...You can always destroy them later if it bothers you.

Just a thought... I've been pretty moved by some of the other videos/audios that I've heard.

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Posted Zero hours preaching- Fading faster

by OnTheWayOut in

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for the first time in my jw history, i turned in a slip with a big zero written in every column,.

turned it over and wrote "zero tracts" below that, i wrote "stumbled by the co".

( see http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/121888/1.ashx if you want to understand the co comment.).

gordon d

Hey OTWO,

What do suppositories and CO's have in common?

Don't know?.... PM me for the answer...

The administrator would have to delete the answer.

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Posted Zero hours preaching- Fading faster

by OnTheWayOut in

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friends

for the first time in my jw history, i turned in a slip with a big zero written in every column,.

turned it over and wrote "zero tracts" below that, i wrote "stumbled by the co".

( see http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/121888/1.ashx if you want to understand the co comment.).

gordon d

Hi OTWO,

Your story is one of the main reasons that this forum has become a huge part of my life! Not for the sadistic entertainment value of hearing someone's suffering... Not for the self promotion of "look how smart we are"...and..Not for the buzz of "look how cruel and foolish those JW's are"... but for the hope that comes from seeing someone like you escape! Makes me think about what Red said when Andy crawled out of Shawshank.

Wow.. if an elder can get out alive, maybe my family can too.

In all the work that you must have done as a shepherd, can anything be as worthwhile as leading the way to safety for yourself and your flock? My wife and I WILL be praying for you... we might even throw an extra couple of puppies on the alter for ya! Don't give up!

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From my "disfellowshipped" diary

by AlmostAtheist in

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nonamegiven's thread on the walk of shame (walking thru the hall while df'd) reminded me of my own experience while disfellowshipped and still a believer.

i kept a diary from that time, serving as a safe place to vent off the anger and frustration of being df'd.. here is a little chunk of one entry.

to set it up, "greg" was the chairman of the committee that df'd me.

gordon d

He Almost,
Thanks for sharing... there have been many times that I regret not keeping a diary of some period of life. Very wisdomus!

The line about a direct line to Jehovah reminded me of a converstaion with my sister about the reinstatement policies. It seemed so hypocritical that a group of elders feel that Jehovah actually sends an angel to guide the brothers in the decision about DF'ing someone. so that with a certain degree of confidence we can be sure that Jehovah is ensuring the wise decisions of his shepherds. (((their words...not mine))) Yet the same angel must be on a 6 month coffee break when a DF'd person returns to say that they have changed their ways and want back in.

TRUE STORY: A young man who was (and IS) very close to me was at my home, talking on the phone to his uncle (an elder) and asking about being reinstated... He was saying that he had learned from his mistakes, was miserable, and wanted to come home. The response from his uncle was that this situation was a lot like the prodigal son and that the young man should read that story, think about his life, and they could discuss this with the commity in 6 to 8 weeks after a time to see if he was really sincere.... He said he'd even schedule it!

I've never wanted to spit in someone's face so badly in my life! Is THIS the WTS viewpoint on the "gentile application" of the parable of the prodigal son?

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another new guy

by Art Vandelay in

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actually, i'm new to the whole forum thing in general.

i guess i should say something about myself...

i'm 23, born and raised in the organization.

gordon d

G'morning Mouthy...

My diabolical plan backfired almost immediately, you completely missed the request for the invitation.... You silly, silly girl!... I was TRYING to get sent to YOUR room!

D'OH!!!... It must ba a "Canada" thing??????

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